Why

Why?
Why does the end of the summer...
make me feel so sad?
Is it because summer break's ending?
Or am i just anxious about the new term?
Restless...
I read in some book that sad and painful
things are the spices of an enjoyable life...
But i get nothing but spice...
There is nothing that i can see..

If there is no meaning for all,
why am i still alive??
still same question everyday, without answer.